it's been a while since I have written anything here, I've been unmotivated, uninterested and just too darn tired to really be bothered with anything much.
This week I was diagnosed with depression & anxiety and to be honest I knew that I was not okay but blamed it on my thyroid condition and general stresses in life, like work. When I was told that I had moderate depression & anxiety I was overwhelmed and a little shocked, I also broke down & cried, I cried because of the realisation of it and also to some extent the relief, relief that I had to face it, come to terms with it and start to gain control of my life. 
So I will face this enemy head on and battle it out until I have won, let the battle begin!